So lately I've been having a lot of conflicting ideas about my own interests and hobbies. Maybe it's not cool to like the things I do, and maybe I get way to into my interests. I'll be the first to admit that I get very obsessive about certain things, but I honestly can't really help that. That's the way I've always been. So let me clarify some things. (FYI this isn't really directed at anyone, but really to put myself in order.) The things I like- my hobbies, interests, etc.- are the things that make me happy. I indulge myself in them for that reason. I don't do them to be cool, or to fit in, I do them because I personally enjoy them. So I really just don't give a crap what you think of me or my obsessions, nor do I care if you share them. That doesn't make us friends and it certainly doesn't make us enemies. I won't debate them with you either.

It's been getting harder to keep up the things that make me happy because I don't really have anyone to enjoy them with anymore. I've been feeling more and more like my interests automatically put me into a certain group and I don't want to be part of that group. The people who share my interests aren't people I'm willing to spend time with.

Why the sudden personal journal? I feel like if I don't share my thoughts I'll never really mean them. If I was too scared to publish this journal, it was just a load of self-righteous crap that I'd go back on later. Unless I say something to someone, I don't feel like I mean it.